Today is Father's Day here in America. I spent the day with my two sons. We went to church, then to lunch, then back home, where my sons hung out with their friends and I stayed in the background, content in knowing that they are safe and happy.
I look back on the difficulties of my life the last few years - an unwelcome separation, move, and divorce - and I realize that the one good, stabilizing thing in my life is the love of my boys. I don't know how I would have made it without them. I try to give them as much as I can and I hope that someday they recognize that. But I know that they have given to me something that I could never receive from any other source - a reason to keep going; a reason to believe; a reason to hope for a better future.
I know my boys will never doubt the fact that I love them with all my heart; but I doubt they realize the positive impact they have just by being in my life. I've tried to communicate this but words fall short.
Nick and Timmy, if you are reading this, I love you more each day.
And to all the fathers out there, I wish for you the ability to express to your children the love you feel. May they never spend one second doubting that their father loves them.